I hurt, with a deep intensity of 1000 Alternian suns. What was love? I knew it once and experienced it twice, I don't know how much more my all in all being, can take for the fear of heartbreak still haunts me; so deeply have I fallen for him and I am still falling, getting deeper and deeper every second. How much longer will I have to wait for his return? I nearly have an ounce of hope left. He showed me what love is, and I love the feeling. I don't want that feeling to go away.




Please......





I love you.

Diary Entry 1

I have feelings too you know. I have a heart, a mind, a soul. I just tend to keep it all bottled up, like it is a spider's prey being wrapped in a white silk cocoon. No I shouldn't use that analogy, it will only make you think less of me. Like say um.....you understand right? If you don't then please either leave or fake it. I don't understand why you are still listening to my crap, because chances are that you don't care. Sure I did bad things, and I guess if I did those things to you, then you have every right to be mad at me, but still. The truth is...I like him....a lot. But it is hard for me to express anything but hatred or disgust or something like that.

But whatever, why should I care what the others think of me hm? I shouldn't and I won't, never has someone told me that they like me. Well accept for her, but she likes pretty much everyone. Does it still count? How should I know? I could always ask...but....I don't know...no one really likes me so....yeah. Why do I have to even write in this thing anyways?!?!?! Ugh! I hate this, plus I have nothing else to say.

See ya,

Vriska Serket

Society, Greed, and Death

I stood there, waiting, watching; but for what? The glee that once flowed freely throughout my being is no longer there. Looking around I only see people with gay faces and lovely treasures of silver and gold. Silver and gold; just one of things standing between the life of a commoner, and aristocrats. But who could hold such divine power that fills our souls with greed? It is not I, for I will humbly stand by those who find no worth in money, power, and all other objects of which fills the once peaceful and love worthy man.

Society does not only judge on looks, but also on who has the most to give onto them. Those who choose to do community service are not satisfying enough to please the aristocrats’ desires of social worth. Yet those who throw a single solitary wrapper that was thrown on the ground by one of their own, as long as that person is a man of wealthy born or gains, is appraised for a great doing of good. How often will one be condemned for their filth of poverty? A better question would be, when will it end?


People have multiple ways to exclude people from the rest. It could involve terrible things from instigating to even death itself. Though poverty helps these cases, not even that can be compared to death. Suicide is often a case where one would feel that they no longer need to live or to be alive. Society can do that to people. Then you must think of what many will say if one noble is to be taken by Lord Death himself. “Oh that poor man! He was great! He had much money to be given! Who will it go to now?” Then you think of the reactions of the death of a commoner who hardly has the money to feed his wife and children? I’d rather not say, for it could become spiteful and have a drastic amount of feelings pounded by myself.


There is no life worth giving if one doesn’t see the worth. And what worth is there if there is no life? Making wishes on stars and waiting will not get you the fundamentals needed for survival; nor will it ever. Do what you must to keep yourself and your loved ones going. Then maybe you will get your wish. Society will stay the same, and it will never change. But those who choose to stand strong and make a difference will be the change that needs to happen.

A Burning Fire

I could feel it. The sharp pain in my chest that consumed by mind and soul. I was without a doubt heartbroken. And I knew that without a doubt that if my fellow peers were to find out, I would only hurt more. Though I know their feeble attempts, in their mind, would make me feel better. My heart was shattered; split to pieces one million times and done all over again. I'm not sure how much more of this I can take. I'm still in love. One deeper than the sea, and higher than the tallest point on the Earth; times ten. But now...I give up. There is nothing to my life now, with out him....my life....is just empty now......no...worse. My life means nothing.

With out him there by my side, it is like the world has stopped spinning, and the place we call planet Earth; is crumbling into complete chaos. Nothing matters with out him. I need him back! I don't care what I have to do! I will do what ever it takes to see him again, to be with him! I will jump skyscrapers and move mountains! I will go up to the brightest star I see and grab it!


He is my EVERYTHING.